Episode 1❤

How absurd??
Now i writing the blog of my own episode.  And now i going to write episode 1 and is write from the end of me and him...and there is our story end...  Our story end on 7 months ago.  Say fast also not so fast slow also not slow...coz it's happen at 7 months ago d..  while he sms me tht we going to be friend it's not only one time..it has been several times.  And the 1st time he told me was he still at langkawi having his training.  He sms me then i asked him back r u serious?  He told me no la...he was joking with me only...then the 2nd time he have sms me when i was over kl and all my friends told me it's time to give up him but i don't think i can do it...I have think that i cant give up him it's bcoz he treat me very very good can be say superb good.  Coz he is a guy i never met in my life and where ever i want to go he will bring me to go...wat i want to eat and drink when we go to a restaurant or cafe he will order for me.  i just give some suggestions not to eat to expensive and dont order too much.  When i left my purse or handphone in his car he will sent back to me...when i knew tht we r going to end...i have no tears to cried out and dont know wat to do...just call and told my friends and msn wat's going on...coz i dont want to let my parents and sis know about tht.  I know tht if i told them they will be very worry about me and keep asking me too..and i also have made promise with him nt to tell my family..i rmb tht nite i slept on 3am and wake up at 8am..tht time i dont know wat to do...cant really slept well...God!!!  Y u want treat me like tht...everything i do for him even exams i also do for him to let him get a high marks.. when u not enough money but u wanna go tht place i still let u go..coz i know u want to go..watever u want to do i always support u..coz i know u will get happy when u done sth u like..when u play pool or snooker and pool i just acc u when my friends ask me when u playing pool wat am i doing thr...i told them i just sat thr..when my parents they keep asking me how's our relationship i answer them good nth happen but it's happen many things.  I realised tht have a girl name "JANICE"  he always keep sms her and ask her wat she is doing?, have dinner or lunch already? or other questions.  But the girl reply her sth in i have forgot d. the one i rmb is the girl have asked him to reload for her.  when i saw the msg he immediately explained me no la..nt the janice we know...tht is his cousin.  U think still believe...i just say i dont care but my heart have broke and bleeding with blood.  U always say u not enough money and i take out my money to cover u..till my mom have controlled my financial coz it's too heavy already..u do this kind of thing behind me..  Want play snooker and pool no money it's ok i let u play and take my money out to let u..no money to eat i take out my money i pay...when u saw my friends wat they wear u always ask me y i didnt wear like them?  Can u think tht am i same with them?  If u like to compare u r not love tht who am i.  and u shouldn't couple with me.. when u asked tht question do u have think about me? wat i feel?  but i still dont care tht time..i just say nothing.. like tht i still not good enough for u?? And u just becoz tht ur mom bring u to the fortune teller there to told u tht u r not suitable for relationship last yr then u just break up with me?  Our relationship is not start from last year, is 2008/12/23 ok? Until now i still cant believe this is the reason. I can say that i still miss u very much and love u very much too..i have never and ever end..  I know u have harder inside ur heart. But anyway, at here i still wish u happy forever and find a better one..^^dont forget u need to take care urself ok?  I will be okay..maybe i not the one u want and not suitable u..  who wants a fat girl to be their gf rite?  Everyone also want a beauty beside them so i know wat u feel.  i didnt blame u..it's my own fault and we are not in the rite time in relationship too..i let u go to find the one who suits u...it will be more happiness and beautiful ending.. GOOD LUCK MY BEST FRIEND!!